The Outside and the Inside

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by Zen Gardner
July 17, 2017


We’re all outsiders and insiders in various respects. Social circles, generally speaking, are just one aspect but they often affect us to drastic degrees. Acceptance by others and needing a sense of “belonging” are strong driving forces in most people’s lives. Sometimes these coincide with our need for a sense of purpose, but often what ultimately drives our heart can alienate us from previous surroundings as we progress through life.

I know for myself my close acquaintances that I still resonate with have narrowed down drastically, but then again I’ve had several drastic shifts. But this has always been the case in my life, with each new paradigm dissolution or correction, as many have experienced. Going through what appears to be loneliness in taking a new direction and leaving the old life behind is a precious opportunity. In most cases we don’t see that as the case when we’re younger and learning about this earthly place and getting knocked around by this mechanistic matrix, but we get the hang of it as life progresses.

Social conditioning and group consciousness are weird things to integrate and fully grasp, and often even individual changes are part of a larger shift and new “collectives” form outside the old ones with new awarenesses arising. These then gain their own group characteristics which in turn are broken out of in various ways, sometimes shifting the “group” think and status, and sometimes birthing another potential tectonic shift in awareness.

Control Systems

What’s evident in most collectives is the formation of new sets of stated or unstated control mechanisms, mores, and regulations for a host of reasons. Religions are a great example, how a system with the stated intention to liberate and empower actually becomes a highly controlled diversion from real truth, giving the illusion of freedom. So called “democratic” governments are the same.

How we allow these encrusted, paralytic structures to do what they do is a massive subject, but we essentially draw these upon ourselves as a personal extension of our own lack of awareness of ourselves. We can be free, and are, at any and all given times, yet we succumb to external control for a wide variety of reasons. These are fundamentally driven by fear – a literal fear of freedom, of what we consider to be the “unknown”, because it directly implies taking responsibility. This can be largely driven by fear of scarcity – being without our basic needs for food, shelter and community. As long as that’s the driving force, humanity is a sitting duck for anyone seeking to manipulate the controls in any way possible.

The amazing and wondrous truth underlying any social system is that any and all control mechanisms can be easily thrown off in a heartbeat by not falling for the illusion of fear. Fear is another huge subject as it permeates so many of our mental and emotional mechanisms and eludes recognition for what it is, being so deeply woven into the lower vibrational human fabric and our fascination for it which can lure us in without our realizing it.

Are You a True Outcast? 

If so, treasure it. In fact cherish it. There’s freedom there. You don’t want to be “accepted” or on the inside of any confinement system in this low dimension. In fact, just about everything we experience in this realm of limitation is a potential trap, no matter how innocuous anything may seem. Anything that limits or even hints at conditions and restrictions, watch out. If it encloses, encircles, is conditional and draws unnecessary boundaries, it’s not your friend and it’s time to make tracks outta there.

It’s just another control system within the overarching control matrix, no matter how cleverly disguised. We draw these conditions upon our unawakened selves. Layers upon layers of them. But we’re getting there as we work our way out of the cocoon we were born into and our wings of truly awakened flight develop.

Once we bend to conformity we’ve lost our edge. Living truly consciously is an open agreement to be freewheeling together, which is a whole different “story”. That’s when what’s essential connects us and remains the focus. Otherwise any and every new normalcy bias will take control, pick up on social as well as negative spiritual rules and “norms”, and quash true freedom of expression individually and collectively. Just look how imagination is treated like a fanciful flight into fantasy, when it’s actually our highest expression of creativity.

Being your true individual heart-led self might seem to be “lonely” at first but just give it time. A whole new world will open up to you. The seeming loss of old, restricting and conditional acquaintances and surroundings is a small price to pay to explore the boundless nature of existence.


So why do such an “uncomfortable” thing as to be your true sovereign self? It depends on where your head and heart are at and what your priorities are. What’s more important to you? Truth, or comfort just surviving in someone else’s construct, group or otherwise? We live in our own shadows or that of others when we could be basking in the light, if we’re willing to step out. Aren’t you tired of the same old stories, including your own? It’s not that hard, it just takes a little honesty with yourself and you’re off and running. But don’t stop. There’s always new enclosures seeking to trip you off into another new construct.

It’s fear that keeps us confined. Fear of many things, most of which are intensely reinforced by this group agreement called society. And fear is all based on lies, complete lies. It’s more obvious by the day that the world doesn’t need to be the way it is, yet the personal implications of our own responsibility regarding this group projection continue to escape most.

The wonderfully empowering reality is that as we honestly pursue truth these energizing and liberating dynamics take hold no matter what. Truth is not popular, especially when it touches on cherished beliefs or sensitive personal issues. It’s very painful at first, even though it liberates the true essence of who we truly are.

No worries, it only means constant change. And wow, the worlds that open up are beyond comprehension!

Stay on the outside. The infinite knows no boundaries.

“Being an outsider to some extent, someone who does not “fit in” with others or is rejected by them for whatever reason, makes life difficult, but it also places you at an advantage as far as enlightenment is concerned. It takes you out of unconsciousness almost by force.”   -Eckhart Tolle


Sincerely, Zen

Zen Gardner is an impactful and controversial author and speaker with a piercing philosophical viewpoint. His writings have been circulated to millions and his personal story has caused no small stir amongst the entrenched alternative pundits.

His book, You Are the Awakening,  has met rave reviews and is available on Amazon.

You Are the Awakening examines the dynamics of the awakening to a more conscious awareness of who we are and why we are here – dynamics which are much different from the programmed approach of this world we were born into.

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Articles by Zen Gardner may be freely shared as long as the text is unaltered and the original author, Zen Gardner, is clearly identified with a hyperlink back to the original article.



  • ariel az alexander
    October 11, 2017, 6:06 am  

    Sounds like the Doors…’People are strange, when you’re a stranger.’ ‘Play to your weaknesses, not to your strengths.’ (NLP)
    Forget about your image…the internet is even MORE dangerous in this respect…..we CAN’T control what people are projecting on us….as many (wouldbe) sopstars found, our so-called fans want us to be chained and bound, gagged even in such a way that we will do nothing to upset their carefully piled applecart…..and especially ‘the handlers.’

  • Sam
    October 8, 2017, 8:19 am  

    A true outcast? I am not yet one, if I am still dependent on a job and being forced to work in an environment and forced to be into contact with people I don’t always like, but have to, because of the money matrix.
    As a man being single is almost getting there. The government keeps encouraging marriage and kids, but never acknowledges the costs of raising a kid here. Then there’s divorce and alimony. Too many are toxic to find the one who I can have a deeper spiritual relationship. Until then being a hermit is the way to go.
    The human race is made of people who can’t be trusted with their emotions, are dangerously toxic and a hazard to your health. Social media like Twitter and facebook can now be said to be as dangerous as the battlefields of the Middle East in terms of psychic sewage. Probably as dangerous as a police officer.
    Too many are distracted by the brightly colored wallpaper on the sewer wall to notice the rising tide of toxic crap rising above their ankles and knees and soon to drown them.
    Keep moving upwards to the manhole and forget the wallpaper.
    Good job to this website supporting Zen Gardner. I was concerned for his well-being after he did not return emails some time in late 2016 (when it had been hacked). I hope to see more articles from him

    • Kathleen Stilwell
      October 8, 2017, 9:40 am

      Sounds like you are going through tough times, Sam. This is planet/dimension is a rough ride. You did, however, decide to share your thoughts with other “humans” because we do need one another. And when we become the love that we seek, we find others who are wanting to become that love too. I’m 65 and still riding the waves. It doesn’t get easier, but we become stronger. Stay open to the miracle of who you are and who others are. Whatever the human race is, we are not all one because we are creators and we choose.
      And, yes, the money matrix has us all ensnared. But even within this illusion of prison, we are unstoppable.

      • Sam
        October 8, 2017, 10:09 am

        Thanks for your reply.
        What you said in that January 2017 article on Zen Gardner, on all of us searching for a decent family and ending up in the pyramid system is very true.

  • RoibeardH
    September 25, 2017, 1:23 pm  

    Reblogged this on Multidimensional Being and commented:
    The fear society is real and daily fueled by controlled mass media, the amount of consumption rely on the level of awakening.

  • Markfarrar
    July 18, 2017, 3:16 pm  

    Life can become very Truman Show
    As you start to break free . The familiar
    Gets weird . Strangers more strange .
    Feelings of paranoia and dread may
    Threaten to overwhelm at times , but
    You find ways to cope , discovering inner
    Strength you doubted , and rediscovering
    The younger you , thought long lost , when
    Adult fears took over .Pay attention to
    Synchronicities .Small ones sometimes
    Come in swarms , meaningful only to yourself .
    Big ones relating to life change affecting others
    Also occur .Synchronicity is truly magical and
    Is reassuring when things are chaotic . Trust
    Your world with your freedom . Your real intent
    Will always be felt and reflected , then life opens
    Up for you in ways only dreamt…..

  • Old Gringo
    July 18, 2017, 3:18 am  

    It’s hard not to feel like a stranger in a strange land now days.

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